Birthday and Stuff

November 2nd - my 14th birthday. That was straightforward enough.
So, I received quite an amount of presents this year. I've always loved my family. They always give me stuff that I want, and also, RED is one of them. I'm a lucky girl and I appreciate it.

And the birthday wishes I get this year are 90% from people I see everyday in school, and also a small percentage of them are from my old school. Love it. Well, they're just Facebook wishes. However, I still feel really happy about it.

My friend even dedicated a blog post for me-- http://ifyoudislikeitpleaseleaveit.blogspot.com/

Love them.

Well, alright done with the birthday stuff. I'm still the happy-go-lucky me, and I'm happy about it. But right now I'm bored, so if you could see my face right now, it's the Kristen Stewart-face. But now I'm thinking about the supper I'm going to get later, so...ohhhhh yesssssss.

I've been spending these past few days hiding in my room, with my computer and my headphones. Been watching a few episodes of Grey's Anatomy, trying to catch up my friend's TV show-watching-speed. She's horrid. RED, 1D, Ellie Goulding, Ed Sheeran, Westlife, Backstreet Boys, N-Sync and Britney Spears are heavily on repeat for the past few days. As I said before, not guilty pleasure, I just love hearing those pop beats during this rainy season.

Well, I realized that my musical taste changes like the weather.

Also, have been chatting with a good friend of mine for the past few days on FB too. Now, we're discussing about another friend's birthday party. Normally, we talk about 1D. I dunno. Weird.

And also, I'm feeling weird these few days, probably cause I don't even talk more than 20 lines per day. I just stay in front of my computer all day till I go to bed. And these non-talking days made me developed a new fear-- I'm afraid I'll be stuck in my own world until I forgot about reality. I better start finding a new life aim instead of just living an internet life.

This post is so boring because I'm bored right now. Sorry. I don't know what else to say.

Apart from all that, Christmas is coming soon, so yay.

And allow me to quote my favorite person ever:

"LIFE IS A RUTHLESS GAME UNLESS YOU PLAY IT GOOD AND RIGHT."

That's right, I changed "LOVE" to "LIFE".

I don't even know why am I writing all these. I feel like, I'm 14, I'm going to have fun yayyyyy :)

Oh god, a new fear-- losing ability to focus.

Oh god, look at how messed up this post is. I'm so depressed right now oh my gosh.

Just kidding, I'm just tired, I'll try to talk like a normal person when I'm focused. Bye.

Obsessed with this song by the way:

Red.

Hello there so today's the 4th day I've been replaying this record we all have been waiting for 2 years-- RED.

I'm writing this on my phone so ya gonna be all texts, in black, no bold, italic, underlined stuff. Enjoy my not-so-professional track-by-track review for RED. *JUST FOR FUN*

1. STATE OF GRACE

A grand opening for this album. Powerful, rock-n-roll love anthem. This song is the perfect intro for a love album like this one. It's like shouting, "WELCOME TO MY NEW CHAPTER OF LOVE MISADVENTURE."

2. RED

A mixed-genre title track. Perfect. Banjo intro, drums, electric guitar for the bridge and metaphor lyrical style. Melodically smooth.

3. TREACHEROUS

Acoustic, folky sounding. A very soothing tune. One of my favorites for no reason. (As I said, I'm not professional.)

4. I KNEW YOU WERE TROUBLE.

A stand-out song on this album. This song breaks down during the end of the chorus. Madly emotional-- way to conclude this song.

5. ALL TOO WELL

One of those songs that are supposed to be on the Fearless album. Written by Taylor's "Fearless" co-writer Liz Rose. Typical breakup anthem.

6. 22

Another collaboration with Max Martin & Shellback. The heart-pumping beat makes our body dance along to it automatically. However, it's not about clubbing nor those typical dance songs on the radio. Produces eargasm.

7. I ALMOST DO

One of my favorites. Her vocal in this song is incredible, not that she hits all the high notes, just that her voice contains the right amount of emotions and the chorus is perfectly arranged.

8. WE ARE NEVER GETTING BACK TOGETHER

I don't need to say anything about this song. Do I?

9. STAY STAY STAY

Cutest song ever written/sung/produced/made. The banjo strumming is adorable, her voice is flirty, and the lyrics are hilarious. It's the kind of song that makes you feel like eating rainbow cake.

10. THE LAST TIME (featuring Gary Lightbody from Snow Patrol)

Musical masterpiece. The coda at the end will make you break down.

11. HOLY GROUND

Written with Jeff Bhasker. The drum beats are unique and the melody is something you don't hear often. Very refreshing and upbeat.

12. SAD BEAUTIFUL TRAGIC

Another typical breakup anthem. The intro brings us to another world and then when the lyrics begin, you start listening to the story of a dead love affair.

13. THE LUCKY ONE

Another Jeff Bhasker-produced song. The most unique song on this album for it's nothing about love. Plainly about the pain of a musician who finds out that making music is not what she desires the most. (evidently Joni Mitchell)

14. EVERYTHING HAS CHANGED (featuring Ed Sheeran)

Taylor blends in Ed's musical style-- acoustic folk. The repetitive chorus and the beautiful harmonization make the listeners fall in love. This song was the most anticipated one on the record so it might be a little disappointing.

15. STARLIGHT

Another one of my favorites. Hand-clapping and fist-in-the-air tune. A story about a long-time-ago love story, well 90% sure it's inspired by Ethel & Robert Kennedy. Love how the song flashes back to 1945.

16. BEGIN AGAIN

A perfect ending to an epic love-anthem-packed record. It's like saying, "STAY TUNED FOR MORE" at the end of a movie left-hanging.

So yeah that's the standard version and I'm just gonna write about the 3 extra songs on the deluxe :)

1. THE MOMENT I KNEW

Cello/piano intro leads to a breakdown chorus. Slightly similar to I Knew You Were Trouble. Favorite. Deserves to be on the standard CD.

2. COME BACK... BE HERE

A boy band-made song. Not sure why it reminds me of Westlife but it just does. Guitar-driven tune about an unfortunate long-distance relationship.

3. GIRL AT HOME

Catchy tunes and relatable for all ages of girls. Glee-made song. The intro is a vocal harmonization of the chorus, which sounds completely fantastic.

Come on. If you haven't bought this album yet you should totally do this as soon as possible man. I'm saying this as a HUGE FAN of Taylor but honestly it just sounds so good.

I didn't really talk about what each song is, lyrically, so you gotta listen to it to find out by yourself :)

CONCLUSION ABOUT RED:

This record is different as it's more than just telling stories by the lyrics, this time Taylor evolves her musical story-telling talent into the melody and proves to the world that she can evolve herself in all genres by working with musicians from all around the music industry and still sound good. Not many musicians can do that. Most of them only stick to the same thing for ten records and Taylor wants to try something different, so this album is like ten steps forward for Taylor.

Also, comparing her four albums is unnecessary, but I just like doing shit like this. So....

TAYLOR SWIFT (2006)
Mixed with all sorts of songs. Country as the only genre, but each song is about different things that she experienced since born to the age of 16-- something she doesn't write about in her new projects. Very precious and lovely.

FEARLESS (2008)
Teen album. A soft, tender album with the sweet, hopeful title track. Most of the songs sound melodically the same and are equally soft and sweet. With repeatedly used instruments. However, this album has a fixed theme unlike her other albums. This album marks her breakthrough in the music industry even though it's not her best.

SPEAK NOW (2010)
Pre-adult album. Listening to this album is almost feeling like you're a teenager but entering the era of real stuff, where what you used to own don't exist anymore. It's a world with 1/2 "I still believe in fairy tales and happy endings" and 1/2 "Things are about to change".

RED (2012)
Taylor's first real adult album. No fixed theme nor genre. Risky try but it ended up as her best work yet. Most of her fanatics are aged from like 7-25 so this album might cause her fans who only liked her old style to be disappointed. Huge change but this record is more realistic than her previous fairy tale albums; even though it's really pop-- which may or may not help her increase her fan base.

WOW I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW HONEST I WAS IN THIS POST.

Let's be honest, after listening to Red, you feel like neither Speak Now nor Fearless are as epic as this one. Hopefully Taylor will not take a break like Adele does. Then maybe two years later, we'll have another record that might be better than Red, because this girl can only get better. She doesn't go backwards.

A Perfect World.

Hello there.

What's up?

Alright, right now, read all these with the best British accent you can fake. Because British accent is SEXY.

Alright. I'm basically writing this because my friend FORCES me to. She's bored and she wants ME to write something to reduce her boredom. So, I thought, boredom. Yeah, boredom inspires the most beautiful creations.

Alright.

Right now I'm going to talk about a perfect life, a perfect world. (well, I hope it'll not make you feel bored)

My idea of being "perfect" is definitely different from society's. Society's idea of being "perfect" is to be good-looking, kind-hearted, nice and have nice curves (for girls) and abs (for boys). This is completely stupid. Biggest load of bullsh*t I've ever heard.

However, just think, good-looking people always give you a good first impression, and average-looking people does not. And, I'm saying this because I'm going to talk about MY definition of being "perfect". To me, being perfect is to have flaws and we'll fix those flaws. And if a person can do it, then that person is perfect.

A perfect LIFE. Well, that's about the same thing, like, look.We're living in an imperfect world where we can't control everything with our mind. However, as I said, being PERFECT is to have flaws, so in this life, we have to work for what we want. And these are all so well-planned, like, we humans have a living rule: we need to drink and there's existence of water. We have animals, and someone created Pokemon to make us imagine animals as those creatures. And Harry Potter! We can't do magic, but we can make it happen using optical illusion.

*Ugh. This is happening again. I'm typing random stuff that pops up my mind and I don't even understand what am I typing. This is happening and I don't like it.*

Alright, what I wanna say is that.we have a perfect life, and we're living in a perfect world, because everything is planned SO WELL before human even exists. This is totally a proof of perfection. And how did humans even exist? There are scientific proof that there's this particle that they called "The God Particle" that created MATTER. However, I just think that all of these are too perfect.

The universe is like a fictional book, everything has to be planned so perfectly and we are the characters in the book. And here's another question: How did the universe exist?

Everything is so confusing. And so is this blog post. I feel so bad for the friend who asks me to write something right now, and so I just bullsh*t out what I thought, and I think they definitely don't make sense.

Goodbye Sister! :')

Hey there, today's 22/9, one month to RED, but also a sad day for me, since my half-sister, Josephine, is leaving to the UK. Well, maybe I should say, "WAS" cause she's in the plane already. Going to describe my emotions in two paragraphs.

So, I didn't really talk with her today because I don't want to, I know I'll make myself cry. And her friends also talked with her a lot, so I didn't wanna bother them. When she was about to depart, she hugged everyone, and everyone said something to her, as advice, and she started crying. I stood as far away as possible because I didn't want to hug her. I feel so sad that moment, I was crying already, but there were no tears because I was holding them back. Then, she went into the departure and we went home. I cried on the way home, but it was dark, and I was making no sobbing sound, so yeah no one noticed :)

To be honest, I think that the reason I cried is not because she's leaving, it's more than that. She's like my only friend when I was a child. I don't know how to say our real relationship, but just we're not blood-related but we're like half-sister since young. She's LEGIT my only friend since I was born till when I started going to middle school because I was really bad at making friends. So, I cried because I felt like, everyone who were in my childhood are grown-ups now. I felt really, really heartbroken.

We had too many memories together:
1) We went to three concerts together: Wonder Girls, Westlife and Avril Lavigne.
2) Once, we went to a restaurant for lunch and then we talked about something and we laughed so hard we hid under the table and everyone gave us weird stares.
3) We watched Finding Nemo together in the cinema. It's the first time I've ever been to a cinema. There's a scene where nobody is laughing, but she found it really funny and so she became the only one who laughed in the cinema. And then everyone stared at us, and it was really awkward.
4) She taught me ice skating!
5) We used to have a diary where I write to her about stuff I didn't dare to speak out, and she would reply me with how I should face it. That was when my uncle passed away & my dad went for a surgery & my momma got stroke and I had a very, very traumatic time.

And the funniest thing is that she's 7 years older than me, and our birthday are ONE day apart. Mine's on 2nd of November, and hers is on the 3rd of November. And I have a nephew, he's 7 years younger than me, and his birthday is on the 5th of November. (SO CLOSE)

Well, basically, that's it. I just noticed that, everyone around me, who used to be my childhood besties, are all grown-ups now, because I am the youngest one in my family (before my nephew was born). They will all be finding jobs, working, and be busy earning money (maybe). However, I think 2 years later when she's back, I will be having fun with her, as well as my other cousin bros and sis. One of my cousin bros who came back from Oklahoma few months ago, has now found a job and settled down.

Might not be having as much fun as we used to, but the memories will last forever. Love all you sis and bros :)

Morning!

It's like 9:39AM now, and this is a little weird since it's like, my first post written in the morning- about half an hour after I woke up. And so, I named my post "Morning!"

A new day represents a new plan, a new life. (I feel like such a mature and deep person now. Haha. Just kidding.) Today, erm, actually, I mean, these past few days I've been staying at home since it's weekend + it's Malaysia Day! I went on Twitter as usual, not studying as usual, and I finished reading Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets! (it's so cool, by the way) And I thought, "Why am I so sarcastic and mean to people?" It just kind of hit me.

*Reminder: There might not be a lot of pictures (might not be ANY) in this post, so you gotta run before you get bored! :)

I've told myself a few posts before, that I like who I am right now, having fun, making fun of everything around you, and that I'll stay that way forever, but I think that's about to change. I don't know why, but in some way, I think that I should have fun myself, yes, but I should make others life worth living too, right? So, I just kinda went into deep-thinking the past three days, and I made up my mind-- I'm going to continue being sarcastic, but not as much as I did, and I'm going to be nicer to people. (Taylor helped me 13% in my decision, she's a nice person, and her fans should totally be as nice as she is)

And, to be honest, I kinda think that the song "Ronan" reminds me of who I used to be. It's just weird because that song is about a beautiful boy who died, and it reminds me of my aunt and uncle, of course, but it also changes me in person. It. Is. So. Weird. Well, that's probably why I love music so much. It changes people. And you are what you listen to, so, yeah, listening to music like this really does calm people down, and make us think about ourselves.

So, dear amazing people, who reads my blog, I hope you guys will think of a way to make yourself a better person, and it's not like I'm saying that, being a nicer person will make you a better person. Being a "better" person can mean so many different things. Like, you can make yourself to be a stronger person, to stop people from doing stuff to you; or you can be a happier person, so everything will be positive to you; or you can be a quiet person, so you'll say nothing, and nothing'll happen to you.

And, most of all, this performance melted me, and I just sat down and broke down. It's so sad, and powerful at the same time, and from the moment I watched the performance, I started thinking of the whole "I-should-change-my-way-to-face-life" issue. This is The X Factor USA, a performance by Jillian Jensen (song: "Who You Are" by Jessie J)

Look at her, the girl who made Simon Cowell CRIED. That's like a mission impossible, but it happened anyway. And the look on her face when she finished singing and started crying-- I couldn't hold it any longer.

Well, that's basically the concept of "becoming a better person" and two things made me thought of "changing" (grr it sounds so corny. google searching the synonyms for "changing", hold on...) All right, so I think I should say "adjustment". First, it's the song "Ronan", then the performance of Jillian-- both did some "adjustment" to me so I can live a good life, and making others better too :)

OK. I'm almost done here:

Weird news of the day: I watched some videos on how to write a song, and guess what, I KNOW HOW TO WRITE A SONG NOW. However, I still haven't written any song yet.. Hmm I don't know what to write about, and I have no time. I'll do it soon enough, maybe after exam, or during exam. Who knows? Songwriting seems so interesting, and it might just make me addicted to it :)

PS: Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. For you, making my post for "Ronan" to reach 161. I checked yesterday, it was 131 views, now it's 161. THANK YOU SO MUCH. All right, now some beautiful pictures for you, for being so amazing. These pictures will produce eyegasm. Haha if eyegasm is a word :)

AND FINALLY

She looks amazing from the back and she's beautiful inside and out :)

Ronan Thompson.

RIP 12.5.2007 TO 9.5.2011

To be honest, there's not much to say on this blog because I'll be redirecting you to the boy's momma's blog. http://rockstarronan.com

He's beautiful. Isn't he? He's a fighter. He fought for 8 months. He never gave up. He never let himself to do so, but the day just has to come. He only got to live for 4 years. It is totally unfair. It is never, ever, ever ok to let a little kid leave without experiencing every stage of life. It's all because of the stupid neuroblastoma.

Well, I don't have much to say this time. Read the blog. Listen to the song below. Click into the link to watch a video of Ronan 1 year ago. You'll know many things. Enjoy.

A Video of Ronan entitled "I Love You"

Some pictures of the lyrics from "Ronan"

Just basically, that's it. All I want is for you to visit Rock Star Ronan's blog and buy the song on iTunes because the money will go for cancer-related charity. Do some good. Buy the song here.

I miss my aunt and uncle and I know some of you out there miss your loved ones who were taken away by this stupid sickness.

TO EVERYONE:

Cancer.

This post is going to be full of sadness. I wish I could add snows to produce the sad effect. But I can't. I'll just add pictures of snows. And shadows. And darkness... Well, there's still going to be some very "inspiring" stuff in this blog. Like, 14-year-old inspiring. Sooooo inspiring. Just kidding, at this age, we're still playing with our toys. Just kidding, (again) at this age, we get hated by adults.

So, in this post, I'm going to talk about the scary and evil CANCER. (not the horoscope pffft) CANCER is my biggest weakness since two of my favorite people have left me because of it. (My second biggest weakness is watching old people eating alone in restaurant) Kinda heartbreaking.

Before I start, here's some pictures that represent sadness (as I promised):

Well, well, well. I'm writing this because I read an article by a humble, down-to-earth music critic, Brian Mansfield, who just found out that he's diagnosed with cancer. (AND, I'm not writing this to make you feel emo, because I'm not an emo person, and I don't like people being emo. I'm not emo right now, you can see it from the way I talk on my blog though) Here's the link to the article if you're looking for it: http://www.usatoday.com/news/health/story/2012-09-01/semicolon-life-taylor-swift/57449492/1

He has a playlist of songs that make him want to live, and you can find it all in the article. He even included "Give Me Love" by the brilliant Ed Sheeran, which is also one of my favorite songs. 

Cancer is the word that haunts me the most, as I said. It's a 50:50 chance to knock out cancer, and the positive 50% requires a lot of energy, money, determination and mostly, your own motif to live. Meanwhile, the other 50% requires absolutely nothing. A lot of people (including my uncle and aunt) chose to fight it. Eventually, cancer knocked them out instead. I don't even know how is that even possible. My uncle fought for about 1-2 years; while my aunt fought for 8 years. EIGHT FREAKING YEARS, I TELL YOU. The first few years were when I was still young, then the following years she went under medication, but in the year 2010, it's back. So, I can easily say that 2010 is my worst year. She fought for the whole year, and left at November 2010, my birth month.

Music. To me, music, is probably the only way to beat cancer. To me. Like, if we don't want to fight cancer in the hard way, that is to undergo treatment, we just gotta let it be, and stay positive, and see how it goes. Music is the medicine for every sickness, anyway. (I know you're probably as confused as Taylor is...)

And, by the way, if you read the article, Taylor Swift (*fairytale music playing in the background*) had a talk with Brian, and made Brian think that her songs about ex-boyfriends are just like his soundtracks to fight. Both of those are lessons in life. And, Taylor is also a girl who can't watch little children, (or adults) fighting with cancer. She hopes to motivate people to "remember somebody they lost, or inspire them to send flowers to somebody they know who's going through it."

I remember once she visited a house full of cancer patients (all-children) and sang a few songs to them, including "Beautiful" by Christina Aguilera, which made a lot of parents go teary. I feel so...('proud' sounds too corny)..erm...PLEASED, to have this girl as my idol :)

Wow. This post took me longer than I should have. And well, add this person called "Brooke's Blossoms N Buddies" they're the group of cancer patients that Taylor sang to last year. They're a bunch of beautiful children, and Blossoms, one of them, has successfully knocked out the stupid cancer in the beginning of year 2012, I think :)

Now, it's time for recommendation:

"Run To Me"

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